Don't Come Over

If you are not sober

then don't come over

leave me to bide

leave me in peace

'cause I want this

to cease

and the water is rising

I'll drown if you

wake

what I need to face

the pain that I chase

wrestling with it 

only makes it feast

and I need to tame

this beast

how do you even

begin to release

years and years

of trauma

amid current

drama

amid physical pain...

I just need peace

but how? 

that release

was leased 

on my life

no matter the strife

I can't play with a lie

that is you

coming by

and letting you in

was the beginning of

the sin

and the battle 

I must win

so don't come over

if you are not sober





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